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Mind Mumbling<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n It has been 2 years and 2 months since I had my accident and I am still dealing with complications and worsening problems with yet more surgeries to put Humpty Dumpty back together again. I still deal with high level pain, weakness and fatigue. A year ago, I was doing pretty well and then things started going downhill as my hip kept dislocating and now, a year later, my other hip is giving me problems and surgery number 11 will be a full hip replacement yet again. I really am turning into the Bicentennial Man! How do I feel about all of this? I am both angry and happy. Part of me throws my hands up and I throw a little tantrum in front of God as I wallow in self-pity, while part of me sees the lives God has touched through my story and I can\u2019t help but smile and thank Him for using little ole me to help others.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Many times, I still find myself afraid as I try to look into the future and see if there is an end to all the hurts, pains and struggles and then I have to remind myself to stop trying to do God\u2019s job and just let Him take care of me. Sometimes, my bull-headed stubbornness amazes me as I try to be in control. Haven\u2019t I learned enough to know life is much easier when God\u2019s in control and not me!? I won\u2019t lie, I get restless and sometimes I feel like I am trapped in a broken body with the desire to do so much more than what I am physically able to do, but then I open my eyes and realize how much I am blessed to be able to do what I can do. When you start taking your eyes off yourself and look at others who are worse than you and have a better attitude and zeal for life, you get a kick to the gut and a reality check across the cheek. How dare I whine and grumble! A few bites of humble pie is all it takes to get recentered.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Mind Mumbling It has been 2 years and 2 months since I had my accident and I am still dealing with complications and worsening problems with yet more surgeries to put Humpty Dumpty back together again. I still deal with high level pain, weakness and fatigue. A year ago, I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":615,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_seopress_robots_primary_cat":"none"},"categories":[1],"tags":[31],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/612"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=612"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/612\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":684,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/612\/revisions\/684"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/615"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=612"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=612"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/creatingfutures.net\/jad\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=612"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}